understanding life

It's crazy how much good advice I give out to people, yet I don't even apply most of them to myself. I tell people to not bottle up their feelings, yet I never express mine. I tell people to reach out if in need of emotional help, yet here I on the verge of giving up. No, I'm not talking about suicide here. I just want to give up every responsibility and incoming ones in my life. Anything just to make me feel like a kid again - not a care in the world. I guess it is easier said that done, I doubt those people was able to follow the advices I gave. Or, maybe it's just me.

I feel lost sometimes. I don't know what to do most of the time, but I always tell people what to do. Why can't I do 'em myself?