Less ups than downs.

I realize how inconsistent I am everyday. I guess I wasn't disciplined, I worked "hard" based on my motivation or moods. There were times that I finished an activity even though I don't feel like it, but rarely. I don't know, maybe I'm just burned out.

I want to talk about her. I used to think forgetting about her through the means of distractions and keeping myself busy is the way to go. But, honestly I think the more I run away from my feelings and thoughts about her, the more they come back stronger. I should most likely embrace those feelings and let it out freely. After all, I'm allowed to express myself one way or another.