I'm aware, but it still stings

[notsonormal]

Me and Enjae aren't really together. We both like each other, but we're only best friends; her parents are very strict so 'til we graduate uni, I can't really date her. More than a month has gone by and we're becoming more and more close to each other. She's now more open about her feelings about me and doesn't subtly hide it anymore like she used to. But, I always have to remind myself that we don't have a relationship, so there are times where I had to forget the things that she does/did that upsets me; I don't want her to think that I'm an obligation to comfort. However, it still hurts. It's still annoying and upsetting. I just I can actually tell her what I feel.